When I wake up

Every morning is spent checking facebook at some point. And every morning I end up going through everyone's recently posted baby pictures. I want a baby so badly. I hope that April is our month. I'm so tired of the let down every cycle, seeing BFN after BFN. Plus I hate DH being disappointed every month it almost makes me feel responsible even though I really have no control over becoming pregnant or not. Just another one of my irrational thoughts. Idk, I read something and it has made me feel a little better about the subject- it was basically saying that only when the baby is ready will we get pregnant. Hmmm...